134: My Magic Number

Barbie bathroom scale set at 110 lbs

Barbie bathroom scale set at 110 lbs (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

In high school I weighed 118 pounds.  At 5’6″ – in my opinion I was much too thin.  In my early twenties I weighed about 121.  Then, seven years ago, after knowing my weight had crept up but not weighing myself I went to my doctor’s office for my annual physical, got on the scale, and literally burst into tears.  I weighed 144.  Now, I am well aware that to many this is not “fat”.  And even I did not consider myself fat.  Yet, at the same time, I was at an uncomfortable weight for me.  I didn’t feel good.  I was tired and lazy and my clothes didn’t fit well.  I knew that things needed to change.

Seeing that scale at 144 was a game changer for me.  I became a regular at the gym, even on Friday nights when nobody else was there, I was.  I began to eat differently, though not how I’m eating today.  I still ate wheat and other grains and most likely way too  much sugar.  But I ate less of everything and drank a lot more water.

It took about 6 months of regular exercise and dedication to my diet but I eventually lost about 10 pounds.  Since then that’s about where I’ve hovered, give or take about 5 pounds.  My weight tends to fluctuate a lot during the year depending on my amount of stress, relationship status and the change of seasons.  But ,for me, my best weight, the weight I need to be to feel the best, is at 134 pounds.  It’s not the thinnest I could be if I starved myself or wore myself out with exercise, but it’s the best weight where I feel comfortable in my clothes, comfortable naked (either by myself or others) and where I feel that I have a life that doesn’t revolve around what and when I eat.

It’s take me all of my adult life – over 18 years – to find my comfort level.  I know people much older than I who have never found it and those for whom it was never a problem.  And I know that as my metabolism changes the time may come when I struggle with it again.

Have you found your magic number?


6 thoughts on “134: My Magic Number

  1. I’m 5’9″ and after weighing 230 pounds in college I have now found my magic number at 139/140……boy do I feel better! Being that number makes me feel really comfortable and I don’t want to feel too thin and I DEFINITELY want to eat (and continue to work out in a healthy way)!

  2. I totally get the “magic number”! I’ve always struggled with my weight…up and down…yoyo! That is until now! I’m 34 years old, 5’4″, and a very busy, happy MOM! My # is 126…this is a weight that allows me to feel great every day while enjoying real food! 🙂 I also weigh every day and a two pound increase is my max allowance! Love it…my # is for real and works!

    • Hi Tandalin! I’m so glad that you can relate – isn’t is great to just feel comfortable with yourself??? Thanks for stopping by and telling me your thoughts 🙂

  3. Hi – I was doing a bit of blog stalking after your comment on my Savannah post yesterday. You have some really great food posts and recipes!

    This post really speaks to my experience. I was the same height and weight as you all through school and my twenties. About two years ago I got divorced, got happy and gained about 20 pounds! While they are happy pounds, I was shocked to see the scales hit 150 at my last doctor’s appointment. I feel like it’s healthy weight but I’m not happy about it. Like you, I try to eat whole foods but I tend to overeat (I also like my wine). Now that my nice little Savannah vacation (and the fried chicken that went with it) is over, I’ve gotten serious about counting calories, drinking water and keeping up with exercise (I walk 2 dogs almost 2 hours a day which doesn’t leave time for much else so it’ll have to do for now). The fad diets are tempting, but I like my food – and you’re so right, I think it’s going to be all about moderation and good sense. I’d love to be back down to 135 and right now that’s my goal.

    • ha! Your “got divorced, got happy” made me literally laugh out loud! I also tended to overeat, especially when eating out, and sometimes I still do. I disciplined myself in the beginning to eat only half of the meals I eat out and now it’s a habit. My boyfriend pokes friendly fun at me by asking “did you enjoy your half of salad?” or whatever I ordered. When I cook at home I do better at portion sizes.
      I’ll tell you, though, what I have found out lately is that cutting out sugar affects my weight favorably way more than counting calories or paying attention to fat ever did. Check out this youtube video http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dBnniua6-oM&ob=av3e and this great article by Gary Taubes (an author who has written about popular food and nutrition for years) http://www.nytimes.com/2011/04/17/magazine/mag-17Sugar-t.html?pagewanted=all.
      Now, if I could just fit in some exercise! 🙂

      • I’m not too big into sugar like I was in my youth and I have stayed away from HFCS for years (although I will sip a soda once in a great while, but try to find cane sugar ones when I crave it). I really only enjoy dessert when I’m out to eat but as I’ve grown older I tend to prefer savory foods. Of course, sugar is still in practically everything. I think I’ve read that article before, it seems familiar. I really think most of the sugar I consume now is whatever is derived naturally in the food I consume (fruits, etc.). Alec Baldwin attributes his recent weight loss directly to cutting sugar out of his diet.

        I think my biggest problem is wine. When I’m cooking and sit down to dinner, I really enjoy having a glass of wine. I’d bet dollars to donuts if I cut out wine I’d start dropping the pounds. And yeah, that portion control is certainly a part of it. Even last night, I made Cuban black beans and baked brown rice with roasted peppers and Parmesan…both were low calorie meals, but I ate three times the recommended portions. I think, though, with a little bit of willpower I can slowly cut back on portions which will result in my being less hungry over time. My parents and grandparents were strict about “cleaning my plate” which was probably the root of my problem. If I got the stomach flu for a week this would be so much easier. 🙂

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